I'm soooo confused. I need advice...BAD. Okay, let's start with problem #1.

1. Gabe-his phone calls have gotten more and more like he wants to get back together with me, he just can't come out and say it. When he asked me lastnight about "that guy", I asked, "which one?" and his comment was: "Please don't say that." He was also reading out of the Bible and after reading an excerpt about forgiveness he said : "I'd forgive you, but I have nothing to forgive you for. You did nothing but love me and be good to me." I don't know what to do. Should I stop taking his calls? I can't keep wondering...and it's too late to be with him anyway. I know I'm dropping out of school, so it's impossible now. So, that brings me to my next problem.

2. Eben-was upset after I pretended to tell my parents about him. He still wants me to move in with him but he seems so unsure...I just wish he could come up here and get me after he's done in Austin. I need to get out of here NOW. I'll ask him about it when he calls me back...because if he's not intrested in working this out right away, that brings me to problem #3.

3. Jobs-I have completely disregarded all phone sex operator replies now...I am fully focused on escorting. I have a few not so serious offers, and 3 very serious offers. What I mean by serious offers is that they are all looking at plane tickets to fly me in. The one I have talked to the most is in Chicago, and he seems like a good guy...but who knows. The other is in D.C., and I'm kind of drawn to it because it is run by a female. There are also only 2 other girls on her website, so I would get a lot of work. Then, there's one in northern New Jersey...but he's intrested in me doing video work, and I'm not so sure about that. He seems shady to me..but does want to fly me out on Thursday...geez. Am I getting myself in too deep here?

I won't get into the other problems right now...I just need advice on this. Please leave me a comment, it would be greatly appriciated.