I think I'm going to move in with Eben...but my inbox is full of responses to the applications I've put out (phone sex and escorting). I have another job opportunity in Atlanta, and one in Boston. Eben said he would support me in whatever I do...but could he support me having a job to do with phone sex or getting paid to go on a date with someone? I doubt it.

Anthony is here...but I don't want him here. It was a HUGE mistake...and now I don't know what to do. And then of course Kas is coming on Sunday...but I might cancel that. Damnit!!! And not to mention that Eben mentioned that he should be married or something like that...geez, what am I doing?

I'm supposed to have a talk with my parents tomorrow for Eben but I'm not. I'm just going to jump straight into this. I'll accept whatever consequences...and I know if I end up not wanting to be with Eben I can keep all these people's email addresses and I can find a job somewhere...I just want this to work though. I want to be happy so bad.

The only good thing about today is that I haven't eaten. All I've had is Diet Rite, Diet Coke, and sugarfree gum. Yay. Let's see how long this lasts...

Ugh, Jayhon called. Gotta go.